Too upset to eat

I’m starting to not mind this. I’m so upset, so depressed, I've lost all desire to eat.

I literally can not stop crying and it’s just making my throat sort of close up and I’m sure I couldn't eat if I wanted to. I don’t even know what I’m upset over.

Just...everything. I really just want to end it all. I really really do. Everyday the idea becomes more and more incising. But I'm sure I won't. I have too much hope. But I'm not sure how long it'll last. I keep telling myself to smile, to stop thinking of negative things, to think positive. It's hard. Everything is making me cry and wish I was dead. Hopefully this will pass soon.

I have no idea what's going on.  

-Cassie