Dear Cassie

Stop, you've had enough. You don't need to eat anymore. You don't need dinner, you don't need a "snack". You can survive without mindless snacking. Don't let me down; Don't let yourself down.
Do feel like eating? Why? Seriously, as yourself why. Because you're bored? Because you're sad? Because you're lonely? Food is not going to make you feel better. You and I know both know all too well that mindlessly shoving food down your throat is not going to help. It's just going to make you hate yourself and feel like a failure. Because that's all you are at this point. A failure.
Instead of eating think of how fat you are. Think of how much fatter you will be. Look at your stomach. Look at the rolls, the bloating, the obscene protrusion. Take of your pants - go on, do it. Look at your thighs, how huge they are. Now look at your ass. Remember when he said your ass was "killer"? I think he was just trying to be nice. Still hungry? Think of how nice it'll be when you're skinny. How hot you'll look with trim, toned thighs, a nice round butt, a thin stomach with slight abs. You can't possibly expect to put a belly ring on that monstrosity you call a stomach. It's getting hotter. Think of how amazing you'll look in skirts and shorts. Those leggings you want to buy-you can wear them with thighs like yours. Think of how his draw will drop when he sees you in them if you don't eat and continue to work out religiously. Think of how badly you want him, now multiply that by 100. That's how he'll feel when he sees you. But not now. You're too weak. You can't even go a few hours without eating. Wow.

Still wanting to shove food in your face? Drink a glass of water, or better yet some tea. Do those squats. Or do Pilates. Think of how bad he hurt you. Think of that feeling you get when he walks away, think of that feeling you got when he gave you that half-assed answer today. It's because you're ugly. Undesirable. Take that pain, that anger, that disappointment and put it into your workout. That physical pain is nothing in comparison so don't you dare quit! Take that pain and make it useful.

You don't need food and you don't need that peasant. But you do need to be hot. Beautiful. You can do it. You don't need to eat. Don't eat. It's not that hard. Just don't do it. If you make it through today, it'll just get easier. You just need to get through this okay? You're worthy of it. You're worthy of being beautiful and hot and sexy. Drink some water. Now. The hunger is just in your head. What will you lose by not eating except for all that fat? Now what will you gain? Everything. But mostly self-control.
Please don't let me down. At the end of the day, I'm the only one that will always be there for you, but only if you let me.

-Ana