Does anyone close to you have an ed? How do you think that has impacted you?
My best friend has an ED. He restricts and purges. A lot. Though he doesn't believe that he has a problem. That's the part that hurts the most: The fact that she doesn't know or doesn't want to admit that she's slowly killing herself. Or maybe she just doesn't care.
It impacts me in the worst ways. Instead of making me want to get better, it just makes me try harder. It makes me want to stay sick and lose more and fast and just get into all the old habits. Not out of jealous or to one-up her, just...I don't know. She's my best friend and I want to do everything she does. Also, she's fucking perfect in my opinion. She's super pretty, she has a perfect body, and an amazing personality. I understand that she can't see it, but...fuck.
I just want her to get better. You have no idea. She's just so much better than this disease.
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