- I'm back with my ex. The one I dated in like October-December. Hopefully things go better this time. We've both grown up a bit. He realized how much he needs me, I realized that I don't need him. As in, I'm not as obsessive and insecure as I used to be. He needs me more that I need him, but I want him more than anything in the world. And that's how I want it to be. Also, I don't have a major freak out when he doesn't text me for a few hours. I've gotten better.
- I finally got birth control. I don't really know why. I mean, I don't need it. As much as I hate my cramps, and as cool as it is to have extra protection when I have sex, I honestly just got it because my mom didn't want me to. I have this bad "I want it and I want it NOW" mentality. I went through Hell to get these pills. And they're kinda useless to me but whatevs. One major downside is that they might make me gain weight.
- I nearly passed out walking to work today. It was noon, it was hot as fuck, and I hadn't eaten a thing. It was scary and I'm still pissed that I had to miss work. But as I was walking home I couldn't help but think about all the calories I was burning. I felt so
weakthin and lovely. And I was able to go all the way to 6pm before eating. - I haven't smoked in forever. Since Tuesday I believe. Similar to fasting, once you get past the 3rd day, things get way easier. Before I was craving nicotine like crazy, now I don't have the physical craving anymore. Like, if someone offered me a cigarette, I'd be able to say no.
That's about it. I'm going to work on drinking more water and just being healthier again. I have more than enough time to do that.
-Cassie
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