The Last Meal

• Pistachios (170)
• 1 Subway Turkey Breast foot long (560)
• Apple Juice (250)
• Reese's (210)
• 2 Slices of pizza (620)

1,810 calories. 

What the fuck am I doing? How did I let this happen? Well...I don't want to sit here and yell at myself and hate myself and whatnot. What's done is done. I can't undo it. I'll just think of this as the last meal for all my fat.

The stress of Homecoming hasn't been helping. If anything it's just been making me eat more than normal. I won't be 95 by Homecoming. But that's okay. It's just Homecoming. Not prom or whatever.

So I'm just going to work on reaching my first GW "naturally". Not by Saturday, just in a normal amount of time.

I can do this.

See, I feel really stupid. I keep starting over and saying "oh, I'm gonna start doing this and this and this and blah blah blah", but I always screw up. I'm sorry guys. I'm really trying though. I know I can do this, it's just a question of if I will. Do I want this bad enough?

yes.

-Cassie