I've been eating normal for the past few weeks. And by normal I mean "everything I can get my hands on". You have no idea. It's just been a continuous binge on shit food (I have acquired an insatiable desire for Twix bars). The funny thing is that I haven't gained much-at least it wouldn't seem like it to the normal, non-ana person. Trust me, I've examined ever inch of my body and I can pinpoint every ounce of fat I have gained over the months, but to the general public I'm still thin as fuck.
Except one area which has become the source of my dilemma. My boobs have gotten a bit bigger. As in my bust measurement has increased by about an inch. And they just look better. I don't know, maybe my mind's playing tricks on me. The problem is that I like having boobs. But I also like having a flat stomach. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! I want so desperately to start dieting again. I haven't been working out at all (mainly because of work), I haven't been counting any calories, and I really want to start again. I do not want to be fat! Summer is so close and I just want to look nice! But...at the same time I don't want to be super skinny. I don't want to lose my boobs. God, I wish you could specifically target fat, you know? Like you could choose where it comes from when you burn it.
Ugh, what am I even going on about? I'm going to bed now.
Starting now I'll drink more water and eat less shit food. And do Pilates. We'll go from there.
-Cassie
No comments:
Post a Comment