I can't do this anymore

September 12, 2012
11:30p

This "Eat 1,200 Calories a Day" thing. I weigh 102. I gained 3 pounds + 2.5" inches on my waist.
In 5 days!
I look fucking disgusting! I've lost most of the curve in my waist. I look awful! Fortunately it has only gone to my stomach, not my thighs. Yet.
A part of me wants to weight it out, another week or 2, to see if my metabolism will get back to "normal" and I'll start loosing weight. But the other part of me has been doing research all day long and has decided that 1. Starvation Mode is bullshit and 2. I should go back to eating 500-800 calories a day. I may even start the Skinny Girl Diet again. Or just use it as a guideline.

So yes. I am back to restricting. I tried eating "normal". I tried eating healthy. But I'm still healthy. I take vitamins and I eat fruits and veggies and I plan to buy even more supplements when I have extra cash. Everything will be okay. I won't have to force food down my throat and I'll be skinny again. Skinnier.
Hey, maybe after I reach my UGW I'll start to slowly increase my caloric intake be "normal" again.

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-Ana