College

Things will be so much easier in college. I'll be on my own, with my own money buying my own food. I'll actually be able to buy healthy food. Or I'll be able to deprive myself of food all together. I won't buy cake and cookies and random shit that will tempt me to binge. I'm far too cheap to splurge on shit food, my parents are the ones who bring that crap onto the house.
I'm excited, but I'm afraid. I'm afraid that being in college, being able to not eat so easily and workout mercilessly (time-permitting), I'll just exacerbate my eating disorder.
But I'd be completely lying if I said I'm more afraid than excited. I'm 90% excited. I can't wait! I still have no idea where I'm going to college (I don't even know where I'll be living come August) but it doesn't matter.
College! Dorms! Freedom! asdfghjkl; It's one of the main things that keeps me going, knowing that I'll be out of here soon. I can't wait until I can get into the real world, away from all this high school bullshit.
Just a year and a half to go...

-Cassie Ana