I don't know what's wrong with me. This huge wave of depression and sadness just washed over me. I really want to cry. I really want to cut. And I just want to die.
I'm so fat and useless and awkward and I just hate myself! I want to get out of here! I want this all to end. School, people, disappointment, I just want it all to go away. I hate everyone and everything and I don't want to be here anymore!
I don't know what I'm doing or who I am or what I even want. I just know that I don't want this. I can't bear to go through this day after day, torturing myself. It just hurts so bad!! I just want it all to end. Not my life, just...this.
I'm probably just going to cut again and go to sleep. It's been a day and 5 months...