101.8

Not as bad as I thought it'd be considering I haven't worked out at all since before Thanksgiving Break. But I'm back to counting calories and I'll be starting my workouts again on Monday. Maybe even the ABC Diet again.

I am such a failure, I know. But I just got off the phone with my boyfriend and I think I have things straight with him. I sorta kinda explained to him my ED and everything and...I just don't have to worry about our relationship now. Meaning I can focus on ana and reaching my UGW. But my first goal: 95lbs.
I can do it.

I've learned that, through it all, Ana is the only one that will always be there for me. No matter what. I need this. I need the control she gives me. I need the incentive she gives me to wake up in the morning. I need the goals and the ambition.
Mostly I just need the goals.

And I need sleep. Goodnight, lovelies. It's great to be back.

-Cassie Ana